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YAH YAH... I know I'm supposed to be on HIATUS but I had some time to post and besides I wanted to show you guys something ... interesting... lol.

A year ago I wrote in a post:

- "How are people supposed to know how I feel if I don't say anything? There ARE people who care after all.

LESSON TO YOU ALL: I learned something today.
Is anyone going to know if you keep all your feelings inside? Of course not. People aren't gifted enough to understand everything. The only one suffering is you. So what can you do? Speak up. Tell people how you are feeling, it might be hard but when they finally do understand, you'll feel so much better. Feeling bad for yourself doesn't do anything, and it never will. Words aren't enough, actions are what matter. If you have a problem, no matter who you are, there is always going to be someone who is willing to listen to you, even if you think the whole world has its back turned to you. Someone is always going to be there. So today, my lesson to you all is this: don't pity yourself because you think you're alone, talk to someone, and you'll find out that there is always going to be someone there."

[And this was like around the same time (except a year ago) I wrote that "just a random thought that people should read thing"! lol...I thought that was pretty interesting... I think the same at the same time of year... >_<;; ] 
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- gosh....8th graders are so... weird, they talk all differently....strange...lol...maybe that's how we are gonna talk next year!!

[hahaha...I wonder if that's what the 7th graders think now... omgsh... >___<;;]
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I WROTE THIS A YEAR & 7 (or 8?) DAYS AGO:

- It's their own messed up brain to judge me before they even know me. I should stop being so freakn sensitive. I shouldn't change who I am just for other people, I shouldn't care what they think, all that should matter to me now is school and the people I DO care about.

[wow... xD such powerful advice I should start taking...]
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- HAPPY BIRFDAY ESK!! 13!! wow...so old!! im yur lil tong sang

HAHAHAHA...hey ohnnie I've been calling you old since a year ago... and instead of tong sang I'm yur MEI MEI now... lol
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(VERY IMPORTANT! THE ORIGIN OF "AZN MAFIA"! xD I WROTE THIS ON: WEDNESDAY, NOV. 19 2003)

- hahahha...mr. brown started saying that im in da "azn mafia" and that i have a gun in mah backpack so now some eighth graders started teasing me....ish so funnie...LOL

That's how it started. muahaha... now it's all "big"... -__-;;
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(sometime in november or december:)
-...i woke up and was like...(dot dot dot {jum jum jum})

[JUM JUM JUM?!?!?! WE STARTED SAYING THAT A YEAR AGO?!?!?! OMG]
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LOL...that was interesting. YOU guys should try it. Go read yur posts from like a year ago. It's really funny to see how you've changed. I used to type like: my = mie ; this =dis ; didn't = din ; have = hab ; and stuff like that... lol.

Well ok... I g2g finish my projects & stuff now! Hope that was interesting to some ppl... xD

YES...I'M STILL ON HIATUS... xD ...kinda...

*MOOD: calm

Hellooo... it's been awhile since I last posted but I think I'll be on HIATUS for awhile. You can post comments here and I'll reply but I just won't be writing any more actual posts for some time.

Or if you want you can e-mail me! =D
Aii_x3@yahoo.com

Ok guys... bye for now!!! ^___^

PS - Bush won. America's gonna be flused down the freakn toilet with poop inside. Kerry should have won! BUSH BOILS MY FREAKN BROCCOLI *inside joke*

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Just a random thought that I think people should read: isn't it funny how so many people think their lives are the worst... no one understands them and they have it so tough? That they're the only ones in this world with problems, that no one will listen to them, and that no one cares? But the truth is, they probably don't even know what pain really is. I'd like people who think they're just so "alone" to know that you should appreciate your life because you probably have it a lot better than others. And instead of complaining that no one listens, maybe you should try to give someone a chance to listen. Instead of complaining about your problems, maybe you should go try to solve them. Instead of making yourself feel miserable, maybe you should try to think of all the good things that you have that others may not. You think people don't understand you at all but ask yourself: have you tried to understand them and help with their problems? If you haven't, why should they? Why is this world so selfish now? You're never alone, you know.

I understand sometimes people just need to express themselves and let all their anger and frustration out but I'm so damn tired of hearing them feel sorry for themselves. Especially if they're my friends. If you're my friend then I want you to know that I'm always here. And I always will be here so you can't ever say NO ONE. Because there's always someone. I'm not talking about anyone in particular. If this all sounds familiar then know it's not just you. It's many others too.   

Now I regret writing that last post where I was complaining. If I ever do that again, someone should just SLAP ME! lol ... I need to start taking my own advice. Until people know what real pain is, they shouldn't complain. I know now that if I weren't here what a difference it would make. I know that there ARE people who care about me. And everyone who feels "alone" you need to know that too.  

*MOOD: calm...
*LISTENING TO: a song by Jay Chou...don't know what it's called...

Ahh... hello... well my parents are really annoyed with my going on the internet so much so I've made a deal with them. xD I won't go on at ALL during the weekdays and after awhile I may get a prize =] muahahaha....jux a random way I ask for stuff. It's gonna be hard though.... oh well. I'll survive. Anyways... so this post is gonna last for awhile. So... bye guys! Call me if you need me.  

Here's a random survey I found...

- Bold the things that apply -  

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with new things.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I love wearing a lot of black eyeliner.
07. I love BEER.
08. I love the weekends.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I can't live without music. (OMG...DEFINITELY)
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags (Coach, Burberry, Louis Vuitton)
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I love the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I am a person. (....wth...)
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake. (who doesn't?)
25. I hate it when people copy me. (on certain things... not everything)
26. My dreams are bizzare.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen Shes all That at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I was smarter.
39. I am the hottest bachelorette.
40. I have a lot of drama.
41. No one knows my full story of my life.
42. I love my hair.
43. I rarely fight with my parents
44. I love the beach.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have had a broken bone.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I love to dance. (i don't think i could survive without dancing...)
60. I love to sing. (i love to do it...doesn't mean i'm any good AT ALL!)
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I hate when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love playdough. (XD)
69. I am forgiving. (...sometimes)
70. I have a good sense of direction. (omg...no way!)
71. I love high school.
72. I have a talent of sweet talking my way out of things.
73. I don't drink enough to get drunk.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I love the Olsen twins
79. I'm gonna try out for the softball team.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Bam Margera is AWESOME.
84. I love the smell of fresh laundry.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I hate the feeling of failure. (you have no idea how much...)
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
93. I still act like a little kid sometimes. (muahahaha...)
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty. (not ABOVE ALL but i still hate it...)
95. I can stay on the computer forever. (that's why it's gonna be hard for me...)
96. I love music. (i can't live without it...)
97. I wish I was more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone
101. I have a girlfriend
102. I have a boyfriend
103. I miss kindergarten.
104. I love nailpolish.
105. I don't get to see the person I love as much as I want to.
106. I need someone to love.
107. I need a new computer.
108. I need a new screen name. ( jux got a new one! =] )
109. I love the yankees.
110. I was cuter as a baby than I am now. (lol.... i was cute! xD now i'm jux ugly...)
111. I wish I were skinnier. (LOL...SOMETIMES...)
112. I wish I were prettier.
113. I need criticism every once in a while. (definitely, criticism builds character)
114. I give really shitty advice. (I GIVE AWESOME ADVICE!!! lol.. at least i hope i do)
115. I have a friend that committed suicide.
116. I hate rock music.
117. I love emo music.
118. All I want is an emo boy.
119. Guys with long hair make me drool. (HERO... *drools* MUAHAHA)
120. Girls that flaunt their bodies make me sick.
121. I'd rather die than be caught in Victoria's Secret. (lmao...)
122. I have naturally curly hair.
123. I have naturally blonde hair.
124. I adore black nailpolish. (my toes are usually black! xD lol...)
125. Gothic people scare me.
126. I left my heart in mississippi.
127. I believe in a thing called love.
128. I have considered suicide before.
129. I've been cheated on.
130. I've cheated on someone.
131. I have trouble trusting people. ( i think i trust ppl way too easily...)
132. I've been diagnosed with an eating disorder.
133. I've been to therapy for Self Injury.
134. I need a new TV.
135. I'm a xanga addict.
136. I can't live without food. (wth...umm...who CAN live without food... -_-;;)
137. I completely despise broadway.
138. I'm a Kerry voter.
139. I have ambitions.
140. I wish somebody cared about me. (yeah...FCG)
141. I hate my school.
142. I think I have a really nice voice. (LOL... no way)
143. I cry more than I should.
144. I'm loud. (when you get to know me... tee hee)
145. I have black hair. (dark hair...not black though...)
146. I miss Kool Aid.
147. I hate America.
148. I'm all for gay marriage.. 
149. Ill never forget 9/11
150. I'm bored.

TEE HEE...